i jumped the border. i crossed over into foreign land because i was led by the feeling of 'thrill' Where i was at just wasnt where i wanted to be i was haunted by my past crimes nd the cops was after me. so i crossed over this border in hopes i would be happy...and i was...VERY happy.
nothn else mattered. i was on my PERMANENT vacay....
or so i thought.
authorities came....nd took my happiness away....i broke the law....
now im in a cell. facin the time of the crime i commited....
i hope not.
I want to plead my case in front of the jury of 'one'.
It seemed like all these guys only wanted one thing Then I found someone who wantd the things unseen Mind body and soul…yup all three And fo the first time in a while I was livin the dream I finally had someone who really liked ME
Nd then how quickly the storm came I was fussin over stuff that seemed real lame I kept apologizing cuz I aint wanna lose wat I had gained I realize it was me…I am the one to blame
I cnt control my thoughts nd I cnt control my mouth But I cnt hold my tongue and my ignorant attitude comes out
But I understand that there is only so much one can take Nd I apologize but my attitude determined my fate
Now it back to the cold me So that I wont hurt nobody So that I ultimately wont hurt BRY. I guess this is the way it has to be
I waited so long fo somethn nd now its all gone
Goodbye to the feelins
Bye bye heart
Im angry as I sit here as I sit nd think of the damaged I caused I did it again..another good thing lost.
I said my next post was going to be called apologies....but my thoughts aren't organized for that yet. Instead I am going to post a part from J Cole's song - losing my balance. This verse somewhat reminds me of Him.....
I got a thing for this little mama
She do it to me plus her brain is forreal imma sucka for love I guess
Wont catch her up in the club cuz she aint into that
Kind of chick that rather rent a flick and get intimate
Say she never fuck with thug niggas only gentlemen
And yea that ass is fat but whats better is her intellect
Other men ah sweat her when we walk past
Cant even blame em’ I did the same when I saw that ass
Match with the thin waist, brown with a slime face
Love the conversation and the kicks was like a sensai
Now she got me chillening with her all around the clock
My homies beefin cuz I never come around a lot
Keep on telling me I changed and things aint the same
And ever since she came around I never want to hang
They tell me that its foul how a chick will make me switch
But man I cant help it dog her mind got me whipped